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Reflections on a Karma Yoga Ashram Life Residency

12/12/2020

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- By Caitlyn Borowsky

How does one begin to describe the essence of an experience that deeply changes their entire way of existing as a human into a form as simple as language? Something of that magnitude must be experienced for oneself… must be felt, heard, smelt and tasted.  It must lather and soak into the skin and be nurtured and held closely in one’s heart. That being said, I will give it my best effort to wring the magic of my own experience and fold and shape-shift it into word form; even then this will barely be scratching the surface.
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Pre-arrival shift and Ashram arrival
I began to feel a shift inside of me occurring days before my feet met with the soil of the Land that holds Ishtadev Niwas. There was a type of gravitational pull from deep inside my belly of all the sticky, story-filled, stale energy that I had been carrying around for what felt like multiple lifetimes. All of the insecurity and unworthiness now oozing to the surface of my skin, no longer able to hide in the dark corners where I had so strategically placed it. This is one representation of the potency of the energy that graces and envelops Niwas. An energy that creates the opportunity for deep purification and this is what I was being offered before I had even arrived — an opportunity to surrender the grief that coated the walls of my heart and to let go of all that I thought I was in order to create the space for the unfolding of my fullest potential.
 
I did not arrive for the residency with any prior experience or knowledge of Karma Yoga and Ashram life and it was definitely an adjustment on a systemic and spiritual level. I simply arrived curious with a feeling that this is where I am meant to be and I am safe here. There is a teaching that rippled throughout my residency — in order to receive we must OFFER FIRST. What I had to offer was sincerity, sweat (and tears!), and enthusiasm and from that offering I was absolutely, unexpectedly blessed in receiving an abundance of experiences, lessons, skills, and opportunities that my soul had been yearning for.

Ashram Life = Coming Home
My residency experience at 'Niwas felt like a coming home to a sacred space that I think most of us dream of living in — a space that expresses, practices and honours non-judgment, joy, beauty and love. Compared to the typical busy-ness and chaos of modern culture, the simplicity of living and studying at 'Niwas creates a yearned-for and very rare opportunity for reorientation. Reorientation from a state of purely self-infatuated thought forms and actions into a new state of consciousness focusing on, and embodying community, connection, service, reciprocity and humility. Living within the intimate embrace of Nature at the Ashram with the support of routine, accountability, Mantra, wholesome food and laughter creates the vibration for beautiful things to manifest. And I was blessed to experience this beauty during the time that I lived there. 

Structure + Duties
Each day is held in the safety and supportive structure of routine: wake-up, Puja, Asana practice, breakfast, Karma Yoga, lunch, more Karma Yoga, chanting, dinner, sometimes more Karma Yoga, and then tea and sleep. From this sense of consistency a simplifying effect occurs. Since each day was relatively dependable, whatever arose was quite simply, entirely me. Any anger, sadness, joy, anxiety, grief, or bliss that was experienced was all arising from inside, whether consciously or not. This makes it effectively challenging to project blame onto anything or anyone external for what is being experienced…frankly that would be a misuse of valuable time and vital energy that would be much more productive in shaping bread or building a new hay shed… This simplification and clarity of the external environment created a spaciousness to witness oneself acutely without the obscurities and distractions that coat our perception in the ‘outside world’ that can make it challenging to understand the truth of the experience. At the Ashram, there is limited space or time for the enactment of our stories, allowing us the opportunity for simple awareness and purification, which can feel intimidating, intriguing and refreshing in one breath.

The Ashram is like an outspoken and compassionate friend that is your least and most favourite all at once. You may spend moments walking to your next duty cursing under your breath, but moments after you’re done throwing a fit to the trees (I am speaking from experience!), you come into a state of remembrance that although it feels like a face slap, it is done by a hand that unconditionally loves you and will never waiver in supporting you in helping you to clean your heart. As painful and uncomfortable as it might be, this is so you may blossom into your purest, most beautiful self. The veils are thin within Ashram and it’s not only the sticky, unsavoury stuff that becomes seen and wiped clean but all of the beauty, uniqueness, love, kindness and courage that we carry and embody is expanded, exposed and made easily accessible for us to experience and share with others.
Yoga Ecology
During my time at 'Niwas, the focus of Karma Yoga duties revolved around tending to Annapoorna Garden and supporting Her growth (creating the possibility for her to support our growth in return!). Watering, weeding, listening, harvesting, witnessing and wildcrafting...these duties allowed me to observe, in awe, the beauty and balance that organically and cyclically culminates in the natural world.  Also, to revere and revel in the bounty of the sacred that grows at our fingertips and beneath our feet — from seed to sprout, to fruit to food and to seed once again. As a keen gardener and an aspiring student of the plant world, I was certain I was in heaven.

The modern world, with everything so instantly accessible, tends to be so loud and dizzy and even green spaces are manicured and molded to convenience us. But Nature’s truth is raw, wild and pristine. She invites us to slow down, let go and to experience true freedom and to arrive into the abundance that surrounds us, that She provides us. She invites us to open our hearts by simply placing our hands in the soil. 'Niwas feels like a whole different world in this sense. I spent my days soaked in sunshine surrounded by wildflowers, honeybees and juniper bushes, walking through the garden barefoot hearing a soundtrack of chipmunks shrilling and chickadees singing each other their sweet songs. You might think, how could you possibly get hooked into the mind’s flat and redundant narratives when you’re surrounded by such magic? Well, because the mind has power, and we’re human with all sorts of messiness coming to the surface during Karma Yoga, but thankfully amongst the open, organic landscape of 'Niwas it is likely that you will be brought back into the present moment by the grace of a butterfly landing on a red clover next to where you’re weeding or by a thirsty sunflower in the midst of 35º August heat helping you to realize just how blessed you are to have the opportunity to recharge in the shade for a moment or to have a sun hat on your head…

One of the most potent lessons for me was from the Yoga Ecology teachings I was offered during residency — to learn how to truly listen. To soften into a state of absorption in order to be in right relationship with the natural world. A relationship of reciprocal nourishment, communication and gratitude in order to fully receive and integrate the loving messages that Nature offers us. Such as, the grasshopper encouraging you in your giant leaps forward and the honeybee’s reminder that in order to collect the sweet nectar, first we must be willing to do the work, that we cannot heal something we refuse to feel.

At 'Niwas, each system you interact with is arranged deliberately to require complete presence. No light switch or water tap is turned on without the awareness of where that source is coming from and what needs to be done or put in place for optimal operation and flow. This is another example of the opportunity granted to reorient outside of yourself, to practice full awareness of cause and effect and the interconnectedness between everything. Whether regarding generator fuel needed to run water to the gardens or caring for the goats and sheep so they can produce luscious fiber to make into wool for weaving items to keep the humans warm in the winter or minding the needs of the mounds of sweet corn so they may grow healthy and tall enough to support the bean stalks in their summer climb towards the Sun. Niwas provides ample opportunity for reorientation towards love. For us to restructure our intention towards serving the greatest good, creating a beautiful, sustainable, rhythmic spiral of care and nurturance for all beings and creatures.

Renewed perspectives
I did not leave residency the same person I arrived as, not in the slightest. I have been revived with a new sense of hope and faith of how beautifully my life will unfold and I found a home that I am always welcome to come back to. Not only did I leave with far less hair on my head… but now my nervous system feels more stable (I experience a fraction of the anxiety I did prior), my heart feels open and ripe, my body is much stronger (mixing and kneading giant buckets of bread dough daily will do that for you) and I now know how to confidently a drill and know which screws are used for constructing a tin roof and the amount of water tomatoes and kakai pumpkins need in order to thrive.

I learned to enjoy the subtleties that surround me, like enjoying a cup of warm tea after an honest days work and how the Moon’s glow hugs the tips of the ponderosa pines. I now tread more lightly on the Earth where I walk, I say thank you to all I experience, and I offer before I receive. I learned how to love. And above all, this experience supported me to finally feel worthy of grace. Despite the bounty of knowledge and skills that I learned, I have barely scratched the surface of this journey and my training — So, lets keep chanting!
 
I humbly offer immense gratitude to Sri Swami Satyananda, Swami Satyasangananda, Swami Niranjananda and the wisdom keepers and light bearers of the Saraswati lineage of whom this wisdom and grace emanates and to the Land that holds 'Niwas gently on her belly, thank you. From the depths of my heart, I offer gratitude to Sn. Shivani, Sn. Paramjyoti, Narayana Madhu, Om Shanti, Avi, Bubbles and the entire 'Niwas eclectic feathered and hoofed family for teaching me, inspiring me, motivating me, holding space for me and for literally holding me together so I may begin the journey of growing towards my highest potential with a foundation of trust, integrity, strength and love. And to all of the beautiful beings that I had the absolute pleasure of connecting with during my Karma Yoga Residency at Ishtadev Niwas, much love and I’ll see you next year!
 
Namo Narayana,
Caitlyn
ॐ
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